Sexual immorality and pornography have been part of my family history for over 28 years. Beginning at the age of eight, pornography was weaved into my consciousness and I lost what it was to be an honorable man. Over the years pornography manipulated into my brain a sense of disrespect for women and what true love was and should look like.
Throughout my teen years leading up to my marriage, I thought porn was OK, that women really liked to be treated like that. I fell for the excuse that I was a guy and I am supposed to like porn. Now through years of watching, porn has seeped into my conscience and left me with a scar I can never remove. However, it doesn’t mean I don’t fight or give up on what’s right.
After marriage, I learned that my wife did not like me looking at that garbage even though she also indulged for my sake. I learned that pornography only leads to destruction, but intimacy leads to a true spouse and partner. If it wasn’t for the fight against pornography and understanding that destruction I would not be married today. I would not be as aware of the dangers of what porn or any other addiction can cause, so in that, I am blessed for the journey I was taken on.
I’ve found victory over pornography, but the fight has just begun. I now have four children to consider, so, I fight not only because I was given a second chance at life but a chance to lead my children into something pure and real. I get to lead my daughters and be an example of what a husband should look like and how a man should treat his wife. I get to lead my son to be an amazing husband and father. I get to show him the true path to understanding what love and marriage should look like. I get to show him how to treat women with respect, virtuousness, and honor. This is the mission of a victorious addict: to use your weakness as a strength and to lead others away from the battlefield.
Guest Author Scott Woodard